I miss you extra today it seems. I was with some of our old friends last night, some that me and you hung around at the same time ;P You would have been there last night and had a blast. Except for the end of the night, I don't remember what got it set off but me and a friend got to talking about you and how things happened, and well, you heard what I said, I know you were listening. And even though they weren't things I should have been saying, I believe you would have said those same words I did if rolls were reversed. I love you so much, and it sucks that it took your death to make me realize how valuable life can be and how important family is. I think I would have learned those things when my son was born, but things hit home when you left. I just don't understand it Randell, why did you have to leave? What happened? It is eating me apart thinking about all the things I do. Maybe I demanded to know too much at the beginning and that, combined with what I seen with my own eyes, is burned into my mind. Why? just WHY? I love you lil bro.. KEEP WATCHING